Oh me. Oh my. Just listening to last.fm when this pops on. Figured I would find it on YouTube and share the crazy unexpectedness.
I let go of one. One who I liked so much I once thought I loved her. Rejection hit me. It dragged me down. Down, down, down. But I slowly pushed myself back up. No, not over her completely. I cannot fool myself nor anyone that much. For she does these things that make me so angry and annoyed. These things I wouldn’t be so tolerant of if it were anyone else. Yet, for her I no longer feel as strongly as I once did.
Now I struggle within myself. I ask myself if I might be starting to like another. I lean toward yes and snap myself into no. Because I don’t want that. I don’t want feelings. I do not want to face them until I am sure of them. But knowing nothing can become of it is all I need to calm down. I believe I generally let go of one to fall for another. So I’ll run. I won’t fully accept it. I’ll run far away. And I haven’t a choice. Home is where I belong. Thousands of miles away. So I am running without choice. Yet I am thankful for that.
My feelings are starting to change but it’s too late. I’m off in less than a week. Without choice I will run away from the feelings that would only grow stronger…from the things I don’t want to feel. I will not admit how I’m starting to feel about her. It’s no good at all. It is only harm to be done and two hearts to be broken. And as I run, I run without choice. I must leave to fly thousands of miles away…to go home. Yet I am thankful for that. It means that nothing
can become of us. And I’m okay with that. If she knew the way I feel, I think she would be too. But she’ll never know. It’s easier this way.
haha trick or treat kid
L-O-V-E this song. I think Alanis Morisette does a versiont too, but they really sound quite identical.